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I was watching millioneer matchmaker and there was this rich overweight lady who was looking for companion. When she started to describe her ideal guy, she spoke only about what she wanted him to look like. She cared about nothing else. I was so shocked when the matchmaker expressed her concern asking “how could a woman who doesn’t take care of herself be so picky with a man’s physical appearance?” The matchmaker stated that, no matter how much money you have, a gorgeous guy would almost only be with you to use you.

Buddyslim, I was so shocked because, honesly, I never took being overweight as not taking care of myself, but guess what? It is!  Do any of you feel the same way? Do you believe that you’re overweight because you don’t take care of yourself?

I had a wonderful day today. It’s my birthday and I wanted to do something for myself, so I went shopping. I never had so much fun shopping alone, I guess it comes with age. *laughs* I wanted to buy myself some jewelry but ended up buying decoration for my home. I was a little confused when I left the store, because I realize that I never made it to the jewelry section of the store. Ahh well, shop nbc, here I come. LOL.

 It took a lot for me to write this. As you can see from my ticker, I went from 263 pounds to 210 pounds. I was 10 pounds away from 200 and have had a weightloss of 53 pounds. I can still remember the feeling. The feeling of freedom, the feeling of achievement, buying clothes for my next mini goal, wearing my sexy heals with my mini-skirts, wearing size 16 jeans and Large shirts. I remember the way my husband would put his arms around me in the elevator, the beach, for no reason at all, sometimes.  That was 15 months ago. Today, I feel I am at my lowest low. I have gained almost all of my weight back. I am now 10 pounds away from my original weight. Yes, you read it right!!!, I am now, 253 pounds. Buddies, my attitude have changed tremendously. I have gained 30 pounds since December of last year. My husband and I went to the
Bahamas to visit my family and I ate all my favorite foods and snacks. I surely enjoyed my vacation. Only problem is that my vacation never ended. I continued eating like food was going out of style.   In January, I enrolled in school to finally pursue my career in nursing. School was my first priority and I kinda forgot about my health.  In March, my husband suffered a basketball injury and had knee surgery. I put my all into taking care of him and today, he is still in therapy. Well, tomorrow is my finals and I am free for the rest of the summer. I am looking forward to my road of success, but I am so unhappy and disappointed in myself. I know it’s worth it but why is this journey such a struggle? I am so lost. I can put my all into school, taking care of my husband but when it comes to myself, I fall short. Why is this?

I just got through reading Tiffany’s blog that she wrote last month, in titled, “What the hell is buddy slim for?” That topic really capture my attention, because when I first joined this site, it was everything she said it is. I made friends on here, 2 of them which I’ve grown to know so well, it’s still hard for me to believe I met them on the internet.  I feel like we’ve grown up together. Discussing anywhere from our personal challenges to our weightloss accomplishments and one for these girls, I have never seen, yet we are like sisters. 

 Unfortunately, as time went on, buddyslim has changed. People grow and they move on. Situation changes and well in the end, the regulars have vanished.  I log on daily just to see if I have any emails, or to see whats going on and usually theres seems to

For some reason, today, I feel so accomplished. I have no idea why, but I do. My weightloss ticker states that I currently weigh 210. Well folks, that was a long time ago, for I weighed myself this morning, and I am 239lbs. I am not that shocked because I actually watched myself pack on the pounds. For some reason, when I gain a pound or two, I have this mentality that it will be easy to lose. However, when those numbers add up and I see the final results, I tend to take things more seriously. Why does it take so much for me to  produce action and get to work?? 

I remember coming back from the Bahamas on Dec 2nd and weighing in at 229. I was still in “vacation mode”, so I took it lightly. Well today, I am taking this baby seriously. I want to lost 100lbs this year and that number is very doable. I would have to lose 2.22 pounds per week to achieve that goal of 135 by Dec 30, 2010. My daily calorie intake would have to be 1,615.

I have to remain focus and prepared to make this happen. However I do need some advice. When I was working, it was easier for me to lose weight. I was on a schedule and the weight just fell off in no time, helping me to go from 257 to 210 in 3 months. Well, now that I am unemployed and have a lot of time on my hands, how do I make the same progress? I know things should be easier, because I have a lot of time now, but it’s not, for some reason. I find myself, putting my workouts off for a later time, just because I have the time and in the end, a whole day wasted.  What would some of you suggest, so that I don’t get board working out all day, but then I don’t waste time either, just sitting down wasting time.

 Please, All advices would be helpful.

O.K. confession. My sister informed me from the beginning of the month, that she is getting married on the 30th of this month.  I was so happy for her, told her I would be home for the wedding. Ya see, I live in Miami, but I am originally from the Bahamas. Therefore, I have to travel in order to make it to her wedding. Confession:::::  I HATE FLYING!!!!!!! 

My whole family knows I have a problem with flying, so they kinda “expect” me to find an excuse,,, and I did….. but I guess it wasn’t good enough. I told them, I don’t have the funds right now to get a ticket. So here comes my dad, “mr. save the day”, ‘If I buy the ticket for you, would you come?’  OMG!!!! So, I am going out of town on Thursday for my sister’s wedding. *:(***%%)   :). 

As for my weightloss, I am hanging in there. Not as perfect as I can be, but I am taking it one day at a time.  Not stessing myself out, just staying focus.  How is everyone else doing?

Today is Sunday and I weighed in this morning at 226.8lbs.  My goal for this week is to follow a healthy eating plan, workout atleast twice per day, for a minimum of 20 minutes and to blog here everyday. I am at the point where I want to be apart of my buddyslim’s life. I want things to get back to the point where I know you by name and not only by face. You get me??? Well I discovered the only way for that to happen is for you to be apart of my daily life.  I am going to stick with my goals for the week and see how much I weight by next Sunday morning. Wish me luck.

p.s. If I post something in my daily blog that you think I can improve on, (e.g- mealplan), let me know. I would love the advice.

Later.

Be back tonight to journal my workouts and meals consumed today.

On the October 1st, I designed a workout plan and a 1500 calorie meal plan for my weightloss. I also decided to try another website, just wanted everything to feel new, as if this is my very first journey. You see, I was a regular here on Buddyslim for a while back in 2006, but most of the other “regulars” disappeared. This kinda made me feel like I was on here alone. Well, I decided to sign-up to another free weightloss site and now only 4 days later I am back.

OMG!!!!! That site was so horrible. People on there were more about diciplining each other rather than encouraging one another. Since when did we have to battle our so called, “support team”? I’ve never seen such a thing. I guess buddyslim has me spoiled, because even when I mess up, you are here to encourage me not to give up and all is not gone. I guess sometimes the grass looks greener on the other side, but it’s really not.

I am here for the long run. Just a few question, How do you get your mind right, when starting the same journey over and over again?  How do you not think of your past failed attempts? and, How has your mind/attitude change towards your weightloss today?

Hearts.

I am so excited!!!!! Last week I joined a weightloss forum here on buddyslim and this morning were the weigh-ins.  I am so proud to say, last week I weighed in at 226, and this week, I am 220.  I lost a total of 6 pounds with the constant contact and motivation of my teammates here on buddyslim.  I really love this site!!!  I have people that email me daily, comment on my page daily and give me the type of motivation I need to mentally make it in this change to a healthy lifestyle. 

Thank you all so much for being so kind, reading my blogs and even if you don’t comment, you send me emails. It’s because of your support, I’m progressing.

Alot on my mind, I;m just all over the place on this internet here. LOL. I was on buddyslim numerous times today and didn’t post, how lazy of me huh?? Well, today turned out good for me. Ate my last meal before 7pm as I planned and I can’t stay out of the bathroom. Thats how I know I’m on the right track, I’m peeing every 5 mins. Getting rid of that water weight, I guess.

I am limping and walking slowly up and down the stairs here. I’m telling you, my workout yesterday was no joke. My arms and thighs and butt are sore. I’m gonna keep doing that workout even when it changes up by the week. It’s a really good workout to ad to your routine.

Well, I’m off to catch up on the blogs here.